I haven’t written in a couple of weeks. And I think there is a very specific reason for that.
The reason is simply a very deliberate effort on my part to think positively. I read the book Happy: Simple Steps to Get the Most Out of Life and I was pretty proud of myself—I already act on most of the suggestions in the book. It’s not about money, it’s about people, yada, yada, I already knew that. But one suggestion mentioned was something I haven’t been great at, and that’s thinking positively.
I think the reason for that is mostly because many of my interests are in things that frankly are not going very well in the world. I constantly read about toxins in my drinking water and in my food, the air we breathe causing disease, among many, many various horror stories. I feel like all the information is important, which is why I don’t simply just ignore it. But with awareness comes a very large burden, and it’s something I certainly struggle with.
But after reading the book, I started to think about how I could still learn the information I feel is important to keep me and my family healthy, while also keeping a positive outlook and cultivating positive thoughts. And as a result, I’ve come to a way of thinking that I’m a little unsure of, but seems to be working nicely for my personal happiness so far.
Normally I’d read these findings and worry. Not about me for the most part, since I’m pretty educated in toxins and ways to avoid them, but for the ones I love. My family. My friends. People I love but who don’t care, or don’t know, or don’t care to know because it’s so much easier (and happier—and as I’ve found out, can’t argue with them there) to not know.
But I’m trying an experiment where I simply try not to care about them. It seems very selfish and difficult when considering you care so deeply about the people, but I really think I’m just going to have to learn to think that way. I don’t want to feel like Eeyore anymore—walking around with a giant raincloud over my head.
So for the past couple of weeks I’ve tried to only think of positive things when I read articles on topics that are very bad news. CNN says that babies are already exposed to over 30 toxic pesticides before they even make it out of the womb? Normally I’d be overcome with worry about my pregnant sister and figuring out ways to get her to consider what she eats. But now, I simply think, “I’m so proud of myself for doing everything I could while I was pregnant to avoid my children’s exposure to that! Way to go, Me!”
It’s a very selfish mindset, but I have to admit, I’m liking the change in my everyday outlook on life.
Which brings me back to my original point of being a lazy blogger as of late—I’m have much less on my mind to complain about!
Although writing this post does give me a thought for my next blog…
Simply,
